via Daily Prompt: Aware

I’ve never been so aware of my surroundings. Some days I have nothing left to give, I am spent and must be aware of my need and responsibility to get filled back up.  We can not give away what we do not have.  My thoughts distract me:

  • The way I breathe in silence.
  • Did the cat grow overnight?
  • I need to paint my nails.

No, focus.  Bring your mind back to focusing inward.  Be aware of only Holy Spirit.

  • I need to review my book for life group.
  • Okay, focus on the worship music.
  • My foot itches.
  • Cat, you may not eat my pen.
  • I’m hungry!

No, don’t think, just bring your mind back to Holy Spirit.  If you think about how your mind is wondering you’re wasting time.  Okay, don’t think that either!  Inside, deep breath, focus.  Go inward to your secret place.

  • I worship You, Lord.
  • I love You so much.  You are amazing!
  • I bless Your name, Lord.
  • Holy Spirit, please come and help me.  Lead me to the secret place.
  • A hot bath would feel so good.  I could do this in the bath.

No! Focus.  Don’t think, just turn your mind inward.

  • Father, you are so worthy!
  • Send angels to fill this room to war on my behalf.
  • Lord, thank you so much for Nancy!
  • You uprooted my life and changed EVERYTHING.
  • You do know what we need.
  • Not my will but Yours be done.
  • Abba, Father…do you see my cat in the window?
  • Thank you for my cat, Daddy.
  • You gave me established godly friendships.
  • You made me fit in this new place as if I’ve been here for years.
  • I didn’t even have to make friends, they were there waiting on me.
  • How does that even happen?
  • You are a good, good Father.
  • I miss my dog.
  • Lord, please bless all the leadership at my old church.
  • They love you so much.
  • I miss them, please take care of them.
  • I need to put the clothes in the dryer.
  • Time check, okay, I have 3 hours until bed.
  • Should I sell my treadmill?
  • My sheets are in the washer.
  • I’m thirsty.

Focus.  Go inside.

  • I’ve missed you, Daddy
  • I need this secret place!
  • I’m so sorry I moved it out of first priority.
  • Come Holy Spirit, You are so welcome here.
  • My knee is stiff.
  • Holy Spirit, help me!  Make me quiet so I can listen.
  • There’s so much peace here.
  • Thank You, Lord.
  • I bless Your name, God.
  • Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.
  • Holy, Holy, Holy.
  • You are Holy, God.

Inside.

  • Amazing Grace to save a wretch like me
  • I am redeemed!  I am whole and clean in You, Jesus.
  • Holy Spirit, help me pray God’s will.
  • All is well here.
  • I can see the love in Your eyes.
  • I love you so much!
  • I can’t believe I get to live this life.
  • You make me usable.
  • I’m so thankful that you let me be usable.
  • It’s all about You, Jesus
  • Lord, I need to know where you have for me to live.
  • I know Your timing is perfect.
  • I do trust You!
  • But…
  • Yes, Sir, I trust You, You know I do.
  • You’re not telling me tonight, are You?
  • Not my will but Your’s be done.
  • Geez, could the neighbors be any louder?
  • I hate squeaky floors.
  • Thank You, Lord.
  • Thank You for closed doors, Daddy.
  • It makes me feel loved.
  • The secret place, draw me, Lord.
  • Fill me up.  All of You and none of me.
  • Holy, Holy, Holy
  • I seek Your face, Lord
  • Jesus, I love You so much!

Welcome to the secret place of Psalm 91.  Where I am keenly aware of Him.  The glory is thick, the love is uncontainable.  The angels are here.  I am filled up overflowing and I bask in His glorious presence.