Seasons change and the last one has ended. The beginning of a new one has started. I’ll be glad when my heart catches up to what my mind knows to be the truth.
Sometimes, the most amazing thing that you wouldn’t trade for anything in the world still hurts. Life is just like that. Change continues to swirl around me and I find myself holding my breath while doing a head to toe inventory to make sure that I am still wearing the full armor of God. The danger in things being so amazing is that between the pain of letting go and the grasping of my new reality is the distraction of them both tugging at everything I have placed at the feet of Christ.
Sometimes, I look in the mirror and try to determine who I am looking at. It is strange at times to see myself this healed and looking back at me with a plan, a calling, a destiny. I still find myself asking, “how did this even happen??” I still only have one answer…God is faithful!
He has changed me and I will serve Him forever!
We are officially in our new home and today we discovered a new park. It brought a feeling of normalcy back into the chaos we have called life for the last few months. I still can’t find more than two pairs of matching socks, my journal, or the tv remote but it feels good to just sit in my chair with my feet up and know that the stacks of boxes surrounding me represent obedience.
As painful as it was, I did the hard things. I put the things I loved on the altar. I took up my cross and followed Christ. And I don’t even have words to describe all the ways that He has given me back everything I lost, in a deeper, greater capacity that will allow me to walk with Him on a higher level. Out with the old, in with the new! He is so faithful!!
New school for Kaleigh
New classes for me
Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:19
Indeed, I am aware of it. The strategetic path He has provided for me to walk allows me to be surrounded by His glory and His goodness. I’m thankful that His love is unrelenting and that I can know without a doubt that He has a good plan for my life. The rivers in the desert are flowing even now.