I decided a few years ago that this life takes grit. My goodness, who knew being a disciple could be so challenging! A short time after I realized that God had put someone in my life to mentor me I made a commitment to myself and to the Lord that I was going to try to not be a burden for them to work with. I had no self-esteem back then and I felt like there was nothing I could offer to make myself lovable, so I worked very hard, in the beginning, to not be a burden. Thankfully, it didn’t take very long for me to start to develop an intimate relationship with the Holy Spirit once I was seeing a Spirit-filled therapist. Then I shifted my goals from pleasing people to please Him. When I came across Hebrews 13:17 in the context of that relationship it gave me a solid resolve that I had set a good goal, but my motive changed and I wanted to do it out of obedience to God’s Word.
Hebrews 13:17 Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they keep watch over your souls as those who will give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with grief, for this would be unprofitable for you.
I’m so thankful that she always told me that it wasn’t her that I needed or wanted, but it was the Holy Spirit in her that I was drawn to. I had never felt love like that and understanding that it was the Holy Spirit loving me through her was the most amazing revelation! Because when your love comes from God, when you have the Holy Spirit as your best friend, it doesn’t matter what anyone does to hurt you, or how your world crashes around you, everything’s still okay. Outside events can’t steal your love and joy when it comes from God. When broken people realize that they don’t have to be lonely and that they can develop a deep meaningful relationship that nobody can take away and that it is with someone who will never leave or abandon them, miracles start to happen. It’s one of my very favorite revelations to share with hurting people, probably because it had such a huge impact on my life. That revelation alone will make everything I’m doing worth it. I’m looking forward to the future when I finish school and can start counseling people and helping them develop their own grit and resolve to be sold out to God.
Having grit is proving valuable in every stage of my life. It was super important in the beginning because I didn’t have first-hand knowledge that it really is worth it and that God really will always 100% come through for me. Now, I know that I can do the hard things, but that doesn’t mean that I never want to quit. Things get really hard at times and it takes grit to push through the tough times when there isn’t any instant gratification happening. God is so faithful to keep me encouraged and going before me to make my path straight. To see Him get the glory He deserves when I do push through makes it so worth it!! He’s amazing and He is currently calling me to dive into waters that until now I have only waded in with arm floaties and a life raft. I don’t know how to do these new things yet. I’m learning as I go and every day is an adventure, to say the least, and that also takes grit. Thinking of grit reminds me of Isaiah 50:7 which says, “For the Lord God helps me, therefore, I am not disgraced; therefore, I have set my face like flint, and I know that I will not be ashamed. It takes grit to set my face like flint and stay focused on the goals God has placed before me. I’m so very thankful that God has healed me and given me the ability to do this life God’s way.
What is it that God is asking you to do that takes real determination and grit? What holds you back? Time is short. You are equipped to do everything God is calling you to do.
Do it afraid if you must, but do it.