I’m so thankful for praying friends!  It has been a difficult month or so.  Trials have come in many forms and I usually do fairly well at counting it all joy…at least most of the time.  I’m a work in progress, but I’ve learned that trials produce new fruit in my life and there is a blessing on the other side of being faithful during trials.  These recent trials have been somewhat different.  I’ve used every tool in my tool belt.  I’ve done all I know to do to stand firm and not make any rash decisions while in my feelings.  I’ve stood on James 1:2-5, knowing that God put us where He needs us, not where we are comfortable 24/7.  I’ve declared the Word and increased my prayer time.  I’ve been honest with my mentor and I’ve prayed for wisdom.  I’ve suited up and showed up as pastor Mike used to say.  I’ve increased my worship, and all the while, my feelings are screaming at me that things should not be this hard.  I’m so thankful that I have learned that feelings not only change, but they lie.  It is never good to make a decision based on a feeling.  God knows what He is doing, what friends we need, and where we need to be for this season.  I’m so glad He has all that figured out for me!

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.  James 1:2-5

It is so important to be open to hear what the Lord is saying when it is not what you want to hear.  Being surrendered is really the only safe place to be, it’s the path to reaping all the benefits of Psalm 91.  When we do deliverance ministry the people who come to us are asking for us to take them through deliverance.  They know there is a problem and they recognize their struggle, at least on some level.  They understand that we all have baggage and there is no shame in wanting to get set free.  It is such a joy to be able to help people walk through that process and find true freedom from bondage and a deeper ability to serve God.  We teach them that it is a process of walking out their deliverance by changing old mindsets and behaviors.  And that if anything from the past comes up or something new happens, that they have the same Holy Spirit we do, and therefore, the same power to command any demon trying to torment them to leave in the name of Jesus.  Because it is an ongoing journey.

This week on my personal journey, I had to do some self-deliverance.  I have experienced a python spirit trying to squeeze the life out of me for over a month now, maybe even two months.  I didn’t recognize it at first, but the Lord revealed it to my mentor and she shared it with me.  Recognizing that its there is half the battle.  I took authority over it and over the symptoms in my life such as fatigue, lack of motivation to complete my ministry projects, discouragement, frustration, utter exhaustion, and physical pain in my back.  I feel so much better!  The python spirit wants to squeeze the breath out of you.  As in the breath of the Holy Spirit that is working through you.  He tries to use your emotions against you.  Thankfully, he failed this time.  He did however show me that there are some things I need to work on changing in my life, and my schedule.  For one thing, I need to stop “waiting” and do what the Lord has dropped in my heart to do.  I think as soon as I got these fresh ideas and got excited, I got attacked by the python spirit.  So, now that the spirit has been revealed and removed, I’m expecting that my video will do seven times more than if the enemy had just left it alone to happen on its own, without the interference causing me to have to fight harder to do it afraid.

So python spirit, what you meant for evil, God is using for good.  What you have tried to accomplish with your pressing has created fresh oil and a new resolve to allow God to have His way in my life.  Finally, it has increased my desire, willingness, and eagerness to finish this current video project quickly and with excellence.  Not only have you given me a great topic to talk about, a perfect example of how demons are real, and must leave when we speak the name of Jesus, you have boosted my confidence in the evidence needed to produce a video others will relate to well.  You have once again brought glory to God as He is my ever-present help in time of trouble.  I say all that to say, python spirit, you loose.

Now that I have been transparent about the struggles I’ve been experiencing, I also want to share the video idea that I am working on.  I hope to have it finished in a couple of weeks.  It is so far out of my comfort zone, as I do not like to be on video at all, but it is what I feel led to do so I pray that I can do it with an anointing of excellence.  I’m going to share some of my experiences with Halloween, what I have learned, and talk about some intense topics of the spiritual realm.  Are ghosts real?  Are demons real?  What are familiar spirits?  How do I know if I have a demon?  I’m going to try to answer some of the questions that people ask me when they hear that I am part of a deliverance ministry team.  So please keep me in prayer!